I have been struggling with trying to come up with an idea of what to write but I just haven’t really had much to say. Which is a huge contradiction because I actually DO have a lot to say. I have so many topics that I want to touch on but I just cannot seem to transfer the ideas in my head to paper. Or in this case a well-written and thought out post.
I hate not writing but I know that I cannot force it. I always want my writings to come off as genuine and pure.
My life has been at somewhat of a stand still. And it feels like this because I’ve decided to work more on my character. And the first step in that process was me being honest.
Which is odd because for once in my life I had to confess an ugly secret to someone I once cared about.
They say that “the truth sets you free“, however, I feel like the truth makes me feel uncomfortable. Again, more contradictions coming from someone whose blog uses the phrase “in depth” and constantly touches on the importance of being honest with oneself. So how can I be hesitant with the truth?
Sometimes I fail to truly recognize my own shortcomings. I think that I fear addressing certain issues that I have because that would mean that I would have to admit to myself that I am at fault. I don’t like “looking bad” but honestly what’s worse? Looking bad or lack of character?
Lying is easy. Honesty takes more courage and strength. But I don’t want to be a hypocrite of the woman I claim to be. I want to BE HER. And as much as I don’t like confrontation or being the one to bluntly tell things as it is…sometimes you have to do those difficult things in order to grow.